You Can’t Be Authentic When You Have Handlers and a PR Team

“Heroism is governed by an unspoken covenant in which the hero must maintain the heroic narrative or lose the rewards of fan worship like cultural relevance, for example.”

-Nana Ekua Brew-Hammond

I fantasize about being a celebrity all the time. I’m not exactly sure what capacity I would serve in. All I know is that my shadow side wants power, and I’m okay with that. I want to be admired for helping people and I want to be sexy while doing it. But in the long run, I think I’ll stick with my quiet, drama-free life away from the spotlight and I’ll tell you why:

Because you can’t be authentic when you have handlers and a PR team. If you come across to people as being genuine, it’s probably because you’re either a good actor or you’re constantly pissing your team off due to your authentic shenanigans.

When you’re famous and being followed around all the time, it seems to me (from the outside looking in) that you eventually become enslaved to your ego, and tortured by your shadow. Your PR team and handlers represent your ego because they want you to present your best face to the world at all times. They want you to be on time for events and likable in interviews. They don’t want you involved in any scandals, and if you get involved in one, it’s their job to clean it up-preferably before it hits the press.

Meanwhile, while your PR team is parading you around like a circus animal, your shadow side is screaming. It’s constantly telling you how much of a hypocrite you are.  How fake you are. It doesn’t want to get up and go to these stupid events. It doesn’t want to shake hands and kiss babies. It doesn’t want to smile for the cameras, and it doesn’t want to be nice to people it can’t stand. It will initiate what most of us refer to as self-sabotage. It will get your attention at night when you’re alone.

Your shadow will behave toward you the way that a lifer inmate will behave toward its corrections officer. It will only tolerate the dog and pony show of the ego for so long before it starts to act out. Now, everyone’s shadow is equally devious and difficult to deal with, but you make your shadow more of a beast when you run around trying to be perfect all the time. You don’t have to be a celebrity to realize this. But when you become famous, your human nature is on display and that seems to make everything bigger.

Now don’t take my opinion too seriously, but I think that we choose our fates here on Gaia before we incarnate into a human body. We determine if we want to be a light-worker or a test. We choose whether or not we want to be famous. In my imagination, when we choose to be famous a red warning box comes up on the screen and says, “Warning!!! Choosing to incarnate as a famous individual on this planet brings about heavy dualistic consequences!!!! Proceed at your own risk!!!!” Those that choose to proceed know what they’re getting into. And then they are born and completely forget everything. And that’s when things start to get stressful.

If you don’t understand and accept that you are dualistic in nature, you will be exposed to your duality until you accept it or until you are destroyed. That’s why I said that I’m okay with what my shadow wants, because she is very powerful. She is also very seductive. I want to honor my shadow. I want to acknowledge the naughty things that I want in moderation. I will continue to entertain my fantasies about fame and power, because that’s what makes my shadow happy. My shadow is not a caged animal.  I will listen to her and learn the profound truths that she wants me to know; because just like the ego, the shadow is not bad. It is not evil. It is not immoral. It is simply present with me at all times, and therefore deserves my unconditional love at all times. It is my test and a PR team doesn’t understand that. They don’t understand that my shadow really does love me and all she wants is for me to love her back: to listen and to learn. And honestly, the darkness is the personification of the female; so if anybody should respect the shadow side of life, it should be women.Carla Calloway | Light Needs Dark

Author: Carla Calloway

Aries. Introvert. Creative writer. Food enthusiast.